DH on the DL

09/23/2020

“Your laugh will ring in my brain forever.”

I finally got the nerve to put pen to paper (or fingers to keyboard, rather) late in September.

The reality is that there are likely scattered notes and shreds of paper from the months prior leading up to the moment I decided to create a folder with your name on it, in code of course. God forbid anyone see me writing about you over my shoulder.

For the months to follow I continued to add dates to the list as I continued to write about you.

Truthfully, my intentions were to get my thoughts down and sort them out for myself. I thought at the time I was just confused. I beat myself up every time you entered my brain. Called myself names and talked myself down every time I thought about you independently from Wyatt.

Before that summer, it was always Draye&Wyatt.

But I knew I was in trouble when I started to hear your name by itself.

The date today is 03/02/2021.

It’s been 5 months and 7 days since I got brave enough to create your folder, and my intentions have shifted.

As we navigate our relationship *insert nervous face* I know I’ll have more words—but I want you in on ’em.

So, with that being said: welcome to your website.

If everything goes according to plan, by the time you receive a link I’ll have dug myself to the center of your world with my words. So Dear Draye,

I’m going to work my way through all my notes in your folder. From there, I hope to document all the big moments, little feelings and precious memories that we’ll hold onto until the day that we die in love (or don’t, who knows).

Here goes nothin’.

Meet ya at the end of always.

LJ